I Don’t Understand!

Humans are instinctively wired to want to understand: understand why something happened, understand why they have to act and talk a certain way, understand why certain behaviors are unacceptable, understand why they need to be at certain places at certain times, understand why they have certain experiences, understand what God might be trying to show them etc. And that’s fair.

I myself am a firm believer in the need to understand otherwise, it is significantly harder for me to follow through with the appropriate action or reaction. But today I went down a dangerous path in my subconscious desperation to make sense of a recent life experience.

You see, God is so wonderful in the way He has created us and He fully understands this our human need to understand. But the problem is that in our desperation to understand we can often steer away from God’s word and towards the alluring words of the world and experience one or both of the following:

  1. You go crazy because despite all your efforts, you never get close enough to the level of understanding you desire OR,
  2. You fall prey to the devil’s deceitful ways as he will throw all sorts of clues that seem logical and sensible but really, they’re just wisps and smoke and are designed to take your focus off God and His perfect will for your life.

This past week I realised how easy it is to get hung up on “why me?”, “what next?”, “what is God trying to tell me?” and “what is the lesson here?” when we find ourselves being launched into a new season of our lives. While this is natural for us to do, the reality is that if we don’t curtail it, we might actually be interfering in what God is doing in our lives and invite so much noise into our spirit that we couldn’t even hear from God if He was using a megaphone.

So earlier today, I shared an article on Facebook which coincidentally seemed to have a logical explanation for a recent experience of mine I was still struggling to get my head ’round. I was so sure that it shed some serious light for me until I got a message from someone I would consider an older sister figure. Her message alluded to the fact that I was perhaps letting negative generalizations, such as those purported in this shared article, to take precedence over what God was abundantly and exceedingly able to do in my life. She also reminded me of a fact that sometimes a situation doesn’t work out SIMPLY because God didn’t want it to and not because of some calculated human effort. And that shook me back to reality. I actually wanted to un-share the article but at this point, it had been re-shared by a few people already. Oops!

Sometimes all we really need to understand and internalise is that God is always in control. I don’t have to figure it out on my own and I don’t have to hound God either about it.

Proverbs chapter 3 verses 5 to 6 (MSG) says, Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track.The reality is that there is always a logical explanation for everything and if you go a-looking you will surely find something seemingly fitting. But God’s will is rarely found in our human logic: For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah chapter 55 verse 8 to 9 AMPC).

There is a lot more peace in just saying, “Lord, let it all be revealed to me in line with Your perfect timing” rather than trying to manipulate your thoughts into trying to falsely interpret a situation. It’s okay not to know it all at this very instance.

I’d just like to sign off with this which I literally just pinched from someone I follow on Twitter. I believe the credit for it ultimately goes to Hannah Brencher (google her!):


Be still and know that He is God.






  1. Lolamiboo April 20, 2016 at 6:27 am

    This really strikes a chord. I always feel like if I sit still for 5 seconds and acknowledge God I have adhered to the “Be still and know that I am God” lool. But I often forget that stillness of mind and getting rid of the desperation to “figure it out” is actually the true message. Thanks for sharing this.

    Hang in there Steph! ❤️

  2. Ngozi Krystle Chukwudifu April 20, 2016 at 10:47 pm



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